It’s months after my last post, and I apologize for the delay. But I had an epiphany.
I found myself standing in front of a jukebox this weekend with a couple of my buds. We couldn’t figure out how the damn thing worked, and it was taunting us with records by Tom Petty, Nirvana, and Johnny Cash. The decision wasn’t mine to put a loonie into the machine, but if I had a loonie, I would have put in another.
So I got home later, and found myself staring at my old acoustic guitar. It was sitting there with its old haggard strings, begging me for a tune. So I grabbed the basterd and started playing. It was extremely out of tune, but I didn’t care.
I was rusty, making horrible sounds, and the strings made my fingers hurt. I couldn’t remember the last time I’d picked it up, and I couldn’t figure out why it’s been so long.
Johnny Cash was my go-to man. And then Kurt Cobain. I sang a Cobain composition at a Christmas concert back in my junior year of high school. I sang the whole song too far away from the mike, and nobody heard the words. They said the music was nice though.
But where was this going? Why did I suddenly bust into a jam at such a late hour?
To be honest, I wasn’t thinking. It was impulse, an old passion of mine. Music. How could I have neglected my guitar, and put it away for so long? It’s not that I didn’t have any spare time to play. There was simply no excuse.
My uncle once told me that everyone needs something they find solace in. He also told me to never quit doing what you love. No matter what anyone thinks.
It’s all about having those things where you can just feel it. You can feel something shining through, that takes you away from the world of problems, the world of worry. Somewhere you can go and get lost in, and it takes you back to that special place you can call your own. We don’t go there to escape reality. We go there to get to reality.